(Thursday, July 06, 2006 / 9:44 AM)
Dear diary,
went over to baby's hse on wed and he was playing mahjong with his family members
i did not join them because i don't feel like doing so
watched tv for nearly 2 hours while waiting for their game to end
accompanied him to creative care
on da journey there, i presented him his present ((:
but i told him not to open till he's alone
so that explains why i didn't get to see him wearing that shirt
actually i've told myself not to expect anything from him anymore
after whatever quarrels we had for da past 4 months
i'm pretty tired of it and i suppose he feels that same way as i do
i don't wanna be a fool to wait for someone who will never fall for me
i used to wait for someone but in the end i chose to be his friend
what's the point?
if one day this relationship ends, i don't think i'll shed anymore tears
i've shed enough and it's prolly time to stop
i wanna stand strong and be the happy-go-lucky ongweising ((:
i'm saying all these might be because i'm sensing something wrong between us
there's a distance or rather a gap between us now
and i find it hard to close it up
what should i do now? wait again? *big big sigh*
anyway, we went back to clementi for da movie 'THE SUPERMAN RETURNS'
the superman is damnnnnnnn suave!!!
awwww, i can't help but to fix my eyes on his face
he's damn charming for me!!! baby agreed with me too!
and the stupid surveyor has to call me for 2 freaking times during that movie -.-"
it's a nice movie though we all clearly knows in our heart that such stuff will never happen.
stayed over at baby's place and shit stuff happened again
he did not coax me anymore and i found it hard to sleep
i was crest-fallen, why doesn't he coax me anymore?
though it's mostly my fault this time round but can't he just give in?
or am i asking too much? or maybe he's sick of coaxing me everytime...
i couldn't sleep, so is he
obviously we did not hug each other so that explains our insomnia
but when i went to da toilet without switching on da lights, he will switch it on for me
finally he gave in and attempted to hug me
of cos i hugged him back, his hugs are impt to me ((:
he's right, i'll never be the one who gives in...
woke up feeling real tired but still i gotta go for work
after putting on my make-up, he accompanied me to wait for bus 7
work started late today and i saw 2 ex-ctss students
one was someone younger than us and another one was da shooting star's dawn
when dawn was in my shop, a few people came in too and stop down there pin pointing at her
at that very moment, i wanted to tell them that 'YES, THAT'S DAWN'
but of cos i did not la, i don't want her to think that i'm her fan
sales wasn't good today, i didn't meet da target, i was short of 100 bucks
argh! how can i improve my promoting skills?
baby was good enough to call me a few times during work and ask how is it going
i really don't expect much from him le...
oh ya, baby took me to SG pools and we placed a bet together
for the match between portugal and france
he told me to go with my intuition and my intuition was france will win
but for the score thingy i'm not sooo sure
erm, does anyone knows who won da match???
