(Monday, January 08, 2007 / 8:26 AM)
Dear diary,
sch has just started & i've no difficulties in waking up
i used to be so elated when school is starting but i supposed that was a few months back
nothing much changes however i realised i'm seriously not interested in my course anymore
maybe i should take a day off tml and sort out my thoughts seriously
am i just giving myself another excuse to stay away from school?
i don't wish to screw up everything when i'm graduating in just 2 months time *Bless Me*
i've absolutely no idea what has changes me to this state, i hates it.
is it really a mad thing to be at esplanade alone at 12 plus?
people laughed at me when i was sitting down there thinking thrgh stuff
i munched on some cookies while listening to songs
people looked at me, laughed a lil when they walked past
stayed there for an hour all alone
and i still can't understand why certain things happens.
night at da museum with kris at causeway point once again
our fav hangout at da moment
cam whoring session
dinner at long john silver
den it was home sweet home time ((:
work yesterday wasn't really good though i managed to take a few glance at him ((:
i wonder if i'm really too quiet or is it just their problem?
or have i actually did something wrong?
gosh, i hate politics at work, it sucks totally.
dinner at sakae all alone with a bowl of udon & a plate of -i dunno what-
took a 1 hr bus ride home with daniel & wen jun calling in to chat with me
you msged me telling me you're missing me more as each day passed by
saying you just realised the person you missed most afterall is still me
saying you've finally realised i've actually loved you pretty much before
and that i'm the one who has been tolerating you and ur temper
declaring me as nice girlfriend
you admitted to me that you've regret making that decision
but you can't have everything back now as you yourself added that ur stupidness has dragged someone else in
your last sentence was if there's ever gonna be a chance for you, you'll never let me go again.
once again, you told me you think you're a bastard too.
thanks for saying it all so nice
i know it's not a very good thing to spell out ur message here
but hey! i don't know if i should ever believe you again
you made my life miserable once and all my friends could tell
i cried for you day and night
and where were you? did u even care?
end up you were out there partying and getting extrememly well with ming en
the girl who is now your girl
you gave up on me totally and even scolded me in ur friendster's blog
up till this point of time, i still couldn't forget everything about us totally
i really loved you before but u did not believe
u chose to rip off everything and threw it all away
how is it possible to mend everything back again when most of the things are gone?
you're really bastard, i'll never ever deny this no matter how nice u're trying to be now
i don't think i've the courage to go through all of that again
you and your mom expect so much from me
till the extent whereby i don't think i'm really myself
maybe it's not much for others but hey, it is to me ok?
even my mummy agrees that it's all too much for me to take.
