sometimes,

some stuff just trigger my thoughts and got me thinking real hard.

many a times i told myself not to be too dependent on others

yet i can't help it.

i supposed it's my nature?

if one day you're alone and feel scared,

would u turn to your love ones first for help?

what if they are unable to help you out at that point of time?

how would u feel?

i don't understand why.

frankly speaking, it's a major disappointment and sadness definitely overwhelms me.

because love ones will always be the one i turn to first.

i wish and hope to be independent

however i know this is terribly hard.

if i walk alone,

am i able to do it?

i really can't depend on anyone

because none of u is reliable.

it's really proving to be damn fucking hard!

and in short, i just have to count on myself no matter what.

no one will be there for you forever.

to me, forever is bullshit and it's whatever to me.

so cut the crap out.