do u know what's my weakest point?

it's my family.

try talking about them and i'll most probably show u another side of me.

all along i've been feeling guilty,

and sorry for my mom too.

all of us were too busy to care enough for her.

or rather, to spend more time with her.

this has been going on for years ...

it's so hard to accept what she'll do when she's out.

i've no idea what went terribly wrong.

we are no longer that close,

just a simple meal with them can make me uber happy!

in case you don't know,

i would very much LOVE to go shopping with my mom so much

however her weird behaviour just forced me to cast away that idea.

yes i need patience,

but try imagining yourself growing up in a environment whereby everything in ur life just seems to be going the wrong way.

other than that,

there're also some changes which makes it hard for me to accept reality.

[trying living with my mom for years and u'll know what makes me an unfillial daughter]

no matter what,

i really love my parents and sister wayyyy too much.

everytime i teared,

they'll always be in my mind.

ijustcan'tlivewithoutthem

thus that explains why i'm so afraid for my mom.

all along she's always the weakest one.