(Saturday, July 18, 2009 / 2:15 PM)
i hate to know that you have chosen her.
hate the fact that she's just another old fucking hag.
i hate it when i know i'm not the one who understand you.
hate it when you never think of our future.
i hate my work to the core yet i can't bring myself to quit.
hate it when my life gets so dry and boring shit.
i hate pretty much everything because right now, everything feel so fake!
why put up a front & lie?
nothing feels real to me anymore.
ought to change my priorities and directions though i'm still slightly lost.
gonna be the emo one soon.
thank god i know someone is still there for me.
this person ain't anyone special.
but i know deep down, i'll always be protected when trouble comes knocking on my door.
however i seriously can't take in everything.
this is pathetic man.
i can't feel anything.
things have changed, including how i feel towards everyone and my thoughts.
i need silence.
enough of hurt, thank you very much.
i think i do not deserve anymore.
take everything back and take it away.
for it's not even mine to hold.
i hate you.
once again, thank you for making me lose all faith & hope.
so pointless for me to do anything at all.