love the inner self of our soul (:

2011-05-10T23:43:00.000-07:00

TADANG!

I'm back from my Phuket trip looking absolutely tan! OMG!
Getting tan was never my intention for this trip yet i still got it :(
On top of feeling fat, now i feel ugly too.

Kinda feel like it's back to those good ol' sentosa days,
whereby i'm mostly tan throughout that 2 years.
Oh please let my skin peel off to become fairer, please!!!!

We flew off on thursday, 6th of May for Phuket.
Exactly a month ago , i flew off to Bangkok! (:
Thailand gave me such wonderful experience that i can't help but to ask for more!
Their streets may be much more rundown than those in singapore,
but their citizen's friendliness definitely beat ours!

The day we arrived in phuket,
we managed to do an early check-in at 10plus when the norm is actually 2plus?
It's a relatively new hotel hence everything look so fresh!
The room we got is extremely SPACIOUS!
I've never seen anything like this before,
there's even a sofa bed for us to laze around!
Not forgetting a balcony for me to do my usual stunt ;)

Centra Ashlee Patong is our hotel's name
and everything about it is fabulous!
Be it their food, service or hotel rooms!

However our hotel room is always in a MESS,
with babygirl, ah boy and i around,
i guess we can never do a proper unpacking of our luggage.
I mean we did not even unpack properly and we were already out to explore our ways around the area!
Can you imagine the mess?
I bet you can't so i'll show pictures to you in the next entry (:

Food and drinks can be considered as dirt cheap at certain places
thus we did not exceed our budget for this whole trip!
But when it comes to shopping, their price is definitely double of those in Bangkok.

With such cheap deals,
of course we can't keep our hands off any alcohol!
But i'm the lousy one thus i'm able to stay away from it most of the times (:

Do you know we even brought wine & beer up the swimming pool for consumption?
I drank till tipsy and thats when i spilled my heartfelt thoughts out to the 2 people who matters in my heart (:

Did i also mention that we hopped on to a cruise and sailed our way to Phi Phi Island? :D
It was an amazing experience to be on the cruise with them tho i felt slightly nauseous.
That island is surrounded by mountains
and the part where their water is really clear is at the dock area
and we can't go near it at all :c

In the end we settled down at the other side for tanning for only an hour before we got up for some shopping!
Phi Phi Island's stores have much nicer stuff than phuket!
Got myself a dress which is totally my style! ;)

I love phuket and phi phi as i get to experience the truly laidback lifestyle of the Thais! :D

At the end of the day,
i think i've bought more stuff for the boyfriend than for myself

Will be back for more

2011-05-03T02:36:00.000-07:00

The long weekend really had me slacking throughout!
I ain't complaning for i get to spend more time with bf before i fly off this friday.
I'm in love with him and i know it for sure as he gives me this particular warm and fuzzy feeling nowadays!
It's what i'd feel everytime i'm in love with someone.
for now,
it's him, my babylove (:

He's also the reason why i'm only 80% looking forward to the trip,
my babygirl almost wanted to kill me for saying that but it's so true
I may still be in singapore right now but my mind is all about how i'm not able to spend this precious weekend with him :(

I know babygirl and ah boy will definitely cheer me up with their crazy antics.
they never fail to do anyway (:
So there you go, 3 more days to our phuket trip!

Recently i've stepped into the 'land of half-price' as my sister named it!
Was there with my girls and the queue was insanely long!
Yes we took public transport as that was our only choice.
None of us drive you see.
Thank god we only had to queue for an hour or lesser to get in.
Not much shopping was done this time round,
we only get to do our hair & nails!
I've got to say their standard is comparable to those in singapore,
my hair was surprisingly smooth after hair dye!
My girl said it does not even look dry at all, we were impressed!
For the nails, it was relatively good too.
The interior deco makes one feel 'welcome' plus they've quite a number of colours for one to choose from!
For the price wise, it's really half of what you'll pay in singapore (:

2011-04-23T03:24:00.000-07:00

wanted to start doing a proper entry but my dearest darl just texted

hence i need to make a move now tho i'm at suntec's starbucks.

Love having a cuppa with bf's macbook to let me play with :D

hee, here's a picture of me doing 'god-knows-what' (:

XOXO, tiffany

2011-04-15T01:03:00.001-07:00

We're back from our Bangkok Trip 5 days ago!
It wasn't one of those 'relaxing vacation'
because i was pulling bf to shop with me from morning till night w/o much rest!
See, that's exactly what i meant by not being the 'relaxing vacation'!

Poor him!
He didn't complain much so i'm grateful for that but at times,
he really do behave like a kid.
And i'll have to coax him, so bad!
I love everything about bangkok though it may not be very accessible to get to certain places.
I feel as if i was in malaysia instead.
Walking was our main form of transportation,
we chose that to experience more along the streets.
We did manage to find out more than what my friends told me!
One perfect example will be A&W!
Nobody told me A&W has an outlet there,
however we were too full to have their fries/waffle ice creams hence we only ordered the Root Beer Float.
With a map around, bf managed to locate the location for MBK, yeahhhh!
Went there and i didn't see much handphone stuff?
In the end, we only get some local snacks & stuff for bf's mommy :(

Siam paragon was our next stop as i wanted to pop by their "Gourmet Market' to stock up on whatever we need back at the hotel room.
Stocked up more snacks for our families & colleagues instead! *Glutton*
I absolutely love their Gourmet Market!
You everything and anything you need, nothing like what i'd imagine it to be (:

Caught the movie 'Hop' at their cinema,
their cinema is comparable to ours and it might even be way better!
Seriously everything about Siam Paragon is awesome!
Like a all in one shopping centre!
Nothing disappoints me there, i'm utterly amazed!

Bumping into my friend there was totally unexpected too,
i think bangkok is 30% full of singapore tourists?

I guess i can never behave like a rich man's daughter (not that i am anyway)
as i love dining at roadside stalls instead of those restaurants in Siam Paragon!
Bf and i went back to the same stall for dinner 2 nights in a row,
the lady there was extremely nice and she understand english hence there was no communication break-down or any wrong orders made (:

Though we never get much rest during this trip,
i'll still have fond memories of it.
Everything about bangkok is so laidback and you don't even need to worry much.
I would love to go back again and i would love to stay in the same hotel!
Thanks to my babygirl's recommendation,
the hotel room & the staff's service way exceeded my expectations!
Everything was almost perfect!

oh and did i mention that SK-II skincare products is really cheap in the Duty-Free stores?
It was an absolute bargain hence i bought the bigger version for my essence and face wash!
That is what i would like to call 'Dirt-cheap'!
Thrilled to get VS's hair conditioner too!
It would be better if they still have the shampoo but nope they don't :(

Anyway i'm now counting to my phuket trip with babygirl & ah boy! :D
afterwhich, i'll need to start saving for another trip in december!
Guess by then, i'll take unpaid leave for a week! (:

For photos ... do click on the link below!

Http://www.facebook.com/#!/media/set/fbx/?set=a.10150150617648192.287923.72603191

2011-03-31T18:12:00.000-07:00

I'm unbelievably hyped up for my upcoming Bangkok trip on 6th April! (it's just 4days away!)
Things like what to wear and pack have been running through my mind constantly!
It's never ending and i actually wrote down a list of it!
Hopefully my luggage is BIG enough for bf & I ( i always have this tendency of packing unnecessary stuff).
Been checking out news of Thailand and i heard there's flood and a slight earthquake perhaps?
I hope God will be kind to us and hold on to whatever disaster that will be hitting on to Thailand for the next few months :(
I still have my phuket trip to go *sigh*

attire i changed into right after the purchase! (:

That is my babygirl above, the one whom i've known less than a year yet we managed to hit off marvelously! No doubt we also have our fair share of squabbling and disagreements over event or stuff which i swear i don't even remember now! You see! That's the thing about us, we will NOT dwell on things! We move on from it hence this explains our healthy friendship (: I admit i'm doing a little bit of self-praising here, HAHAHA! Whatever it is, we love each other and i know she's always there when i need her. Be it financially or mentally, she is really there and that's what i need from a friend exactly (: Looking forward to our phuket trip with her and Mr Edwin Tsien (:

Outfit for today : do i look too mature?

My favourite part of my office work desk!
[flowers was given by bf]

a ZOOM IN view on my calendar! :D

Yours truly shall wait patiently for 6th April! (:

Dim Sum @ Jade Fullerton

2011-03-08T01:07:00.000-08:00

5th March 2011.

T and i made our way down to Fullerton for the much anticipated dim sum!
The spread there is much more awesome than the one we had at Goodwood Park!
Just the title of those dim sum makes me drool!
Imagine foie gras and truffles? Don't you love it?!
The menu is IMPRESSIVE and they even served main dishes & soup!

Crispy prawn with wasabi mayo!
it's crispy enough but i can't take the wasabi!

Steamed Abalone siew mai!
those tiny abalone look really cute!

Steamed Xiao Long Bao with Foie Gras
Everything is almost perfect for this, one of my favourites!

Roasted Pork Belly with Five Spice
T ordered this but i think it taste rather normal?

Steamed Squid with Coriander
i know the look of it may be disgusting but it taste absolutely yummy! Worth giving it a try! ;)

Your usual 'Har Gao' aka Steamed Prawn Dumpling

Steamed Custard Bun
This is good but it's not as fantastic as the one in Cathay (:

Deep Fried Golden Cheese Ball (Chef's Recommendation) & Deep Fried Prawn Dumpling!
the deep fried cheese ball is an interesting concept for dim sum!

Fried Chicken With Dried Chili
not a fan of this dish and neither is it spicy at all.

Steamed Chicken Feet
this is tender enough for you to bite (:

Congee with Dried Scallop
it look plain and taste kind of plain too (:

Braised Sharks Fin with Truffles and Crabmeat with Chicken Broth.
one must definitely try this! It's definitely not like those watery kind of sharks fin you get at other places!

Fried Bee Hoon In HongKong Style
rest assured that the above does not taste like any bee hoon stalls in the market! (:

Oh dear, i forgot the name of this dish!
but it is absolutely refreshing! I'm a dim sum lover and i'm sure you can't find this dish anywhere else in sg! ;)

Sweet and Sour Chicken
this is another one of my favourites! The chicken is amazingly tender! :D

Mango Sago
Nothing special about it (:

Thank god all the dim sum came in the servings of two hence we did not over-ate!
I wish i can go back for another round this weekend, but no.
I need to assert some self-control badly! :c

On a lighter note,
I'll be flying off to Bangkok in early april with T!!!
Followed by a Phuket trip in early May!

I think i deserved it (:

Back after 6 months.

2011-03-08T00:47:00.002-08:00

Yes, i'm finally back to where i first started blogging! I still love blogger the most!
I'm trying to come up with a decent post for now so please let me start out with pictures!
Not much here but will try to dig out whatever i can find!

I realised i don't have much pictures to upload!
I think i should start doing a proper blog entry the next time round,
hence i think i'll need tons of picture to make the blog entry seems lively!

I promise i'll be back soon!

2010-05-09T04:36:00.000-07:00

Dear diary,

I'm so happy because from today things will be different (:
You're mine from now onwards boy (:

Welcome to my new life (:

With love,
Tiffanyong

2010-05-04T18:35:00.000-07:00

Dear diary,

Good morning people! (:
I'm in sucha joyous mood today!
and im seeing my baby girl wee wee later on! Can't wait!

Till now, i'm still deciding if i should go taiwan or thailand & bali for my holidays?
If i'm going to taiwan, i most prob won't be brining that much of moolah.
however if i go thailand & bali, it'll be a different story.
For taiwan, it'll be with my colleague and we'll be there for 5 days 4 nights.
as for thailand & bali, i'll have to wait for my bitch to confirm with me.
And i suspect there's gonna be lots of S&S going on if i'm with my bitch! (:

Whatever it is, decision have to be made by this week!
And my holidays will being in early july! (:

With love,
Tiffanyong (:

2010-05-03T18:24:00.000-07:00

Dear diary,

I know this is clearly none of my business but i'm happy for the Ang's family!!!!!!
Because mrs lam is pregnant!!!!!!! hahahahahahaha!
In da past she told me things hence i'm really glad that she's gonna have a healthy baby!
I bet auntie and uncle are must be on cloud 9 now!
Omg i can't believe it! The ang's family gonna have more laughters and fun!
Isn't that a piece of great news?????? heh
I sincerely wish for her to have a smooth delivery and a cute and healthy baby!
I love babies!!! Can't wait to see the pictures of her baby!!!!!!!!!!! heh

With love,
Tiffanyong (:

2010-04-29T18:59:00.001-07:00

Dear diary,

Sunday was spent with katie, sheng, jynist, kervon and akiko at thai disco!
It was just a simple celebration for katie and sheng dude opened 2 bottles of martell,
i literally drank till tipsy again -.-"
I truly enjoyed myself over there all thanks to katie's bday, HAHAHA!
I think i did not even spend a single cent because sheng dude sent me home first.
Aww i miss him dearly! (:

2010-04-29T18:33:00.001-07:00

Dear diary,

I was reading yahoo news and i came across this article which left me speechless.
An 18 years old girl actually have the courage to jump off the building.
Honestly, i admire her for her courage, this may not be an honourable thing to do,
but lets be truthful, how many of you here would actually dare to do the same thing?
How i wish i've her courage.

But then again, it's depressing to know that another young lady left this world in the regrets of love.
Love always made one go crazy yet we can do nothing about it.
I hate heartbreakers, they may think that it's the best way to stop ,
but they'll never know how much one will suffer in the aftermath or rather during the healing period.

Take me for an example,
when my ex-bf of 2 years decided to end things with me in a harsh manner, things got slightly out of control for me.
I told him i would do lotsa nasty things and my words did came true except for the prostitution part, HAHA!.
Other than that, i did nothing less.
And now i only regretted for the scar on my hand because it's downright ugly and deep and i'm ashamed of it.
I hate heartbreakers because they're brainless and heartless.

Thank god i've my dear friends and families who were there for me.
Time passes by faster when they're always there for me (:
I love you all and yes i promised myself to have more pride and diginity when it comes to r/s.

It's been 3 months but i swear and cross my heart that i'm fully recovered (:
For this, i'm incredibly proud of myself! heh

2010-04-25T04:03:00.001-07:00

Dear diary,

Right now i'm in the office typing up this entry ... Surprising right?
But i ain't working, just passing by to bring those forms back to office in case anyone calls me tml!

Yesterday was katie's bday celebration @ Timbre,
and we gave her a lil surprise by buying a cake!
Initially she thought there ain't any however her sweet GF have made reservation for the cake way beforehand (:
All i did was to collect it and bring it down together with the help of Azni! (:

Reached the place ard 8 but before that, guess who i bumped into?!!!
It was peter ang's cousin! Vivian!!!!!! hahahaha!
She's still nice and sweet! I've no idea why but she asked about my bf! haha!
hope peter ang didn't ruin my image? HAHA!
Whatever it is i'm truly happy to see her at Wisma! (:
I'm sorry to say this but i seriously miss peter ang's family and relatives!!!!!
They're really those kind of family/relatives whom you wish you'll have (:
I gotta say peter ang is truly lucky to have them around and i know he cherish them(:
Previously i also bumped into Grace and Da Long but we just said hi only, haha.

Ok, lets not side-track anymore :P
Dinner was good as i had my favourite pizzzaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!
I NEED TO GO BACK FOR MORE! HAHAHA! ANY PIZZA LOVER? (:
Katie's friend was surprisingly easy to mingle around with hence you could see me going in & out of Timbre (:
Dinner ended late and the night continued to Boat Quay.
Not much to do over there but we saw Chris & Ken, for me it's like AGAIN?!
HAHA, i'll always see them when i go parrrrty, meant to be? HAHA!

Today's gonna be another day to party yet i'm not in the mood to.
What's wrong with me now? Hmm ...

with love,
Tiffanyong

2010-04-21T01:37:00.001-07:00

Dear Diary,

I've this feeling that sushi is my lover, i can't stop having it!

Always craving for the same thing! so weird.

I'm sooo sleepy and work's ending in like 12356789 mins later.

Gonna watch 'The bounty hunter'!

Been waiting for it to hit the screens of our dear cinema (:

Ok i'm really stuck at this point,

no longer know what should i update here.

Am too lazy to take a walk down the memory lane for the past few weeks as too much was going on.

Everything is happening slightly too fast but then again, i'm always so anxious for everything(:

I'm starting to get hype up for this coming weekend!

I can feel my body moving to the music and i'm hoping for things to happen.

Shall update this space aft this weekend.

With love,

Tiffanyong (:

2010-04-18T04:51:00.000-07:00

Dear diary,

How have you guys been spending your days?
Mine have been wonderful so far (:
I love it I love it I love it! HAHA

Can't wait for next weekend!
Party, booze, gathering and getting close up!
Just the usual stuff but all of us are sure it's better this time round (:

With love,
Tiffanyong (:

2010-04-11T22:01:00.000-07:00

Dear diary,

My dear friends, am I really a scandalous girl?
I was taken aback when syahril told me that,
He's someone who knows me during sentosa days as he was my senior.
Trust me, I'm never one of those girls though (:

On a funnier note, elisa's sister is pretty much into the idea of match-making me with her friend! HAHA!
I heard she was surprised to see da physical change in me,
I was always those next-door girl or plain jane when I was much younger.
But now things changed with da help of make-up, heh
Nonetheless she still likes my feature!
Hence the idea of match-making because she believe I don't deserve to have all those shits coming frm my ex-bf.
I truly appreciate this gesture of hers as it's incredibly sweet! (:

Ain't I a lucky girl? (:

With love,
Tiffanyong

2010-04-09T00:33:00.000-07:00

Dear diary,

People who knows me well should know what i'm up to right now.. heh.
It's FRIDAY people!
Time to relax and chill ... take a break and smile! (:
There's always so much things to do in life, why rush to get everything done when it's not within your abilities to?

Anyway mommy will be back on monday!!! Aww i miss her so much! (:
Believe it or not, i'm starting to appreciate them more (:
Cheers to mommy and to daddy for sponoring my studies! HAHA!
Yes my sister is forcing me to further my studies and my dad can even ask if i wanna study in Sg or overseas ...
I mean studying overseas require a lump sum of money so i ain't gonna do that.
Besides i'm never those type of independent girls.
So studying in Sg is good enough for me (:

We shall see when will be the time i truly stop fooling around and get serious.
It won't be anytime soon i supposed, smile! (:

With love,
Tiffanyong

2010-04-07T09:34:00.000-07:00

Dear diary,

I found out one thing in common between my ex-bf.
They like to apologise at least 2 years after we broke off,
Except for peter ang who did that aft 2 mths instead, haha.
Even the guy I used to like came forward to say sorry also.

It's kinda creepy that they are doing that at da same period of time.
May I ask why?

Nevertheless there're only 1 or 2's apologies which I accepted.

Goodnight world, it has been a tiring day.

With love,
Tiffanyong (:

2010-04-07T02:29:00.000-07:00

Dear diary,

i've been too free, HAHA!
ok now i'm awake once again and it's time to knock off!
happy hours here i come!

With love,
Tiffanyong (:

2010-04-06T18:11:00.000-07:00

Dear diary,

It's 2 more days to TGIF and 3 more days to the day i've been looking forward to for da past 3 weeks! wheeeee!

It's a day which i totally can't forsake no matter how tired i'm or whatsoever, that's how important this day is (:

Anyway it's really hilarious how kate see me as someone who's desperately trying to find the right one and get married!

Am i really over-doing it?

I mean looking at ppl ard me, they've all found the one they wanna settle down with!

I know you can't be too sure with this kind of things

but then again look at how sure they're of themselves!

It's nice to know who's the one you're settling down with my dear friends (:

Keep the sweetness and happiness going on!

With love,

Tiffanyong

2010-03-31T03:55:00.000-07:00

Dear diary,

it makes me happy to know that everyone around me is happy too (:

I love everyone including you, you, you, you and you. The 5 of you (:
Hence i would like to see each and everyone of you being happy (:
I've too many regrets till this point in life.

At work, i've learn to let go,
what about in life and relationship?
Am trying hard to learn to let go in life,
as for relationship, it's easier to let go when my doubts are being confirmed.
However that doesn't mean i love anyone lesser (:
Seeing all my ex-bf's smiling photos makes me smile too (:
Yes that includes you peter ang (:
I know everyone is very happy with their life now,
and it may be hard to believe that i'm happy for them cos i used to curse and swear.
But i no longer do that much anymore, instead i smile when i know they're happy and single unless it's like 2 years ltr (:

Like i said before, i leave everything in fate's hands.
If love comes knocking on my door again, i'm sure this time round i'll knw what to do (:
Loving someone is akin to placing their needs above ours (:
Am i too late to love?

hopefully i'm able to find the one and settle down wheni'm 28.
5 more years to go tiffanyong! (:

With love,
tiffanyong (:

2010-03-31T01:30:00.000-07:00

Dear diary,

Lets say yesssss to a long weekend babes!!
Great so i'm on leave tomorrow for the whole day ... wheee!
Gotta pack my mom's luggage as she's flying off to china,
hope this trip will really make her happier though she will not have us by her side :(
Am incredibly worried for her but what to do since my dad bought the air tix alrdy.

On a lighter note, i'll be out clubbing tonight at Powerhouse babies! (:
It's been quite a while, kristine darl and chee hoe will be accompanying me there
As for the lady who asked me to go down, she've yet to confirm anything so i'm not too sure (:

I truly need this holiday and i think i deserved it especially since i've in sooo much hard work nowadays. Can't wait for the spanish lunch this sunday too!!!!

Enjoy the photos below, please don't puke! =p

2010-03-30T02:24:00.000-07:00

Dear diary,

Due to the fact that i'm rushing off soon, i shall let the pictures do the talking! (:

With Love,

Tiffanyong

2010-03-28T19:37:00.001-07:00

Dear diary,

Yesterday my sister told me my mom's illness will lead to a premature death.
Ain't life shitty at times?

With Love,
Tiffanyong

2010-03-24T21:12:00.000-07:00

Have you been checking out this space? heh
Been really busy and since i've got no photos on hand, i did not blog either.
Still waiting for missy kate to do her job! hmm.

Anyway things are looking on da bright side!
Everyone is back and you're making your way back too (:
This is da main reason why i'll always smile out of nowhere..heh.
I'm still as silly as ever (:

I shall update more when i've got the photos from katie.
Meanwhile, have a good time and enjoy ur youth! (:
Love you all!

2010-03-15T00:48:00.000-07:00

Hectic hectic week baby!
Sooo many things to be rushed out! More and more late nights out ...
when will my body collasped? haha!

Last week have been fun with all da drinking nights and a trip to UNIVERSAL STUDIOS!
It was unforgettable though we only took 1 ride and shopped for the rest of da trip there!
Cl even made a hilarious remark ... it's kinda true though as we make it a point to buy something when we were in each and every shop!
However that didn't really happen, kate and i both bought the Betty Boop Kissy Cushion!
It was soooo cute and we dined at the dim sum restaurant,
was surprised that thomas actually paid the bill in secret, you should have seen my expression on da spot! HAHA!

awww ... i missed Universal Studio, i wanna go back sooooooon!
And i miss merlion peeps too! Dropped by for a visit and kevin was sweet enuff to let us into our STOREROOM!
the place where holds some of my sweet memories! (:
It was incredibly good to pop by over there for a visit.

The start of the saturday was really good!
bought some candies first before taking da car to EAST COAST PARK! *beams*
we were pratically lugging our huge shopping bag and our pathetic heavy bags over there.
Squeezed everything into the locker and we started roller blading ...
with it being my first attempt after sooo many years, i fell once i start, can't help but to keep laughing at my own clusminess!
The 2nd time i fell, i just sat down there without moving as my butt hurts like mad!
My butt is still hurting till now and i can't flip ard when i slp, it's da bone area there :(

As for sunday, it was family's day for me (:

2010-03-10T20:55:00.000-08:00

Dear diary,

Edit: now i feel so bloated after lunching at Dim Tai Fung and i heard a piece of good news!
soooo looking forward to sunday now *beams*
TIFFANY WANG HUIXIN IS A HAPPY HAPPY GIRL! (:

It was really heart warming to see ah peng still being so close and sweeet with her bf aft like 2 or 3 yrs!
I really ought to change to sustain that kind of warm fuzzy feeling! (:
I'm just so envious babe!

Meanwhile i'm freezing in the office yawning away while waiting for someone to meet me for lunch!
Yeahhhh it's been so long since anyone make the effort to lunch with me (:
Gonna take time off too so that i can do some shopping!
My eyes are closing so please give me a break (:

Tonight might be a good good night again, i'm waiting!
Tomorrow will be a tedious night because i'll have to do some entertaining at a dinner function on behalf of my manager, how smart -.-"
As for saturday, we will be roaming ard Universal Studio early in da morning and it's really early i swear!
As for da night, am still waiting for someone's reply.

TADANG! IT'S GETTING CLOSER! (:

2010-03-10T01:31:00.000-08:00

Dear diary,

Don't ever blame me for the pathway you chose to walk,
afterall i was never really there to force.
Keep a distance from now onwards.

Work is still suffocating me but i'm a happy girl today!
Thanks babe for sharing that with me (:
You make my day! Can't wait for the day to come! (:

Watched 'Being human' for da 2nd time but now is with thomas and kate!
Da lame show still made me laugh and seeing them having bak chok mee makes me go hungry
so we deciede to head down to bedok for supper since we need to send kate home too.
However da market was closed! Hence they brought me to another famous side of bedok for my mee.
But sad to say i was only able to order prata or western food, thank god it was still yummy!
In da end i reached at 1:55am!!!!! Freaking late and i was slping in da car all da way till i reached hm!
Now i've got panda eyes.

Tata!

2010-03-08T01:06:00.001-08:00

Dear diary,

Do you know i feel extremely lucky to find a buddy that care and dotes on me so much?

I'm happy that you're always there for me and stuff, i know how nice you're to me.

I'll always remember this (:

Whether or not am i going to be with him, it doesn't matter

because at the end of the day, i'm happy to have the 2 of you as my friend (:

Lets forget about the lil confession you made and carry on from where we left.

2010-03-04T21:12:00.000-08:00

Dear Diary,

I can't hold it any longer .... i'm tired :(
Been sleeping late for the past 4 nights!
Been chilling out at timbre, shopping & Karaoke sessions with the dudes and kate.
Thomas was even nice enough to pick us up from his workplace before driving us down and sending us home.
I'm amazed such guys still exists! (:

I'm too tired to carry on with work, i seriously need to do OT sooooooon!
But i've got something to motivate me, my build-a-bear thingy! heh
After waiting for a yr, someone is finally going to get it for me! HAHA!
He's willing to do the stupid thing, unlike my ex-bf, gosh! What a huge disppointment!
I'm soooo looking forward to it and i'm bringing kate along so that we can dress up my bear (:

Next up with be Disney on Ice!!!!!!
I soooo wanted to watch this soooon and tommy volunteered to accompany me.

Anyway it's really hilarious how everything can be back to the original place after 1 big round.

Contented with life (:

2010-03-02T18:03:00.000-08:00

Dear diary,

Congrats me! It's been a month since i've been free and now i'm really getting the hang of leading a single lady lifestyle (:

I know i sounded real silly and stupid but i promise that will be the last time you hear me whine (:

Al least now i'm feeling relieved and am enjoying every moments of it.

I'm also pretty amaze at god's way of planning things,

it's like ever since the break-up, i've been bumping into everyone! yes everyone!

The guys especially ... it's unbelievable but it was a good feeling tho.

So grateful that they're still there for me and everything, thanks guys for making me smile like a idiot when i'm alone ... HAHA!

I love timbre and i really do!

Just sitting down there sipping the red wine listening to music calms me down (:

Especially when i'm so stress up over work and with the accompany of 2 guys and 1 girl, i had loads of fun! heh

I love my life now and i'm truly contented (:

your day

2010-02-26T00:36:00.000-08:00

I know today too well by the heart to forget about it.
It's your birthday (:
I bet you must be enjoying yourself with whichever girl you've set your eyes on.
Life is too easy for you ...
You always have it the easy way.
Learn to appreciate and count your blessing everyday, you'll be happier this way.

Enjoy yourself with your girlfriend,
I'm now determined to move forward.

You won't hear from me anymore.
Maybe 2 years later we might be keeping in contact again.

That's just me, i only contact back my ex after 2 years.
However i doubt i would want to have any connections with you anymore.
You're the only one who treated me like shit when we broke off.
You were the most mean one among them, even fucker is nicer than you do.

The next time someone hold me so high up again, i'll climb down slowly.

I regret doing those silly things for you because the scar on my hand is still there.
As deep as ever ... I regret everything about us.

It's truly a mistake to even start.

Bye.

2010-02-17T00:23:00.000-08:00

At last,
Whatever it is,
I have decided to leave it up to god and fate to decide for me (:
No point dwelling on it anymore.

It has been too long.
I don't wish to waste my time anymore.
Pointless.

Cheers to the new beginning (:

Lovelove!

2010-02-16T05:14:00.000-08:00

I seriously hope that time can revert back to 2 years ago,
Because if it does, I'm sure I won't choose to be with you
As eventually your love for me will die and I sincerelt don't wish for it to happen,
I think this is a real torture for me.

Just today my friend told me she havn't been hearing the true laughter frm me.
Just for today, I'm utterly depressed and what I wrote on the blog was the song u used to sing to me while wooing me.
I still clearly remember everything till now.

2010-02-13T16:26:00.000-08:00

HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR & VALENTINE'S DAY PEOPLE! (:

Beside this being the lunar new year period, i realised it'S also the break-up season!

Most of us are sharing the same fate, i just find this really hilarious that's all.

I learnt my lesson twice and now i've the confidence of not repeating it again i promise (:

However i teared for him again, can't help it ... and i miss him terribly at this moment.

I gotta admit i'm pretty weak at this moment.

Regretted sending him a CNY msg as he did not bother to reply.

what was i hoping for?

I hate it when one person can hold me so high up and just made me fall down the next min.

2010-02-07T05:53:00.001-08:00

People, no matter what entry i posted below, please take no notice of it.
Everything is just a memory to him now (:

Days ago i joined the single ladies club unwillingly...
bascially i put aside all my dignity and pride to beg for a chance.
Sad to say, no one can be bothered with me ... HAHA!
so there goes another guy who decided to walk out of my life ONCE AGAIN.

Thank goodnes my friends are still here for me so I LOVE YOU ALL DEEP DEEP!!!
However what surprises me the most was to have zhi hao showing me support by having drinks with me at a pub.
After all these years of blaming him and everything, he's actually the 1st person to accompany me for drinks.
We went over to selegie, had 2 jugs of beer and we sang our 'Duet', da song we used to sing tog.
And he told me soo much about the past which i don't even know about!
At ard 3 plus, i was already tipsy and it got worse when i was home, so weird.

From now onwards, i got to learn from scratch again ...
it's a long week ahead w/o you guiding me the blur me (:

ps: I'll still be right here waiting once you've enough fun (:

2009-09-26T09:56:00.000-07:00

i'm completely lost.
why am i facing the problem now instead?
everything seems to be in a question mark.
and definitely no one's to be blame for this outcome, at least not totally.

i always like to prepare for my future though no one can predict it.
however having a rough image of it gives me the confidence to move ahead.
without even just a rough idea made me stop in my tracks to ponder.

Disappointment starts to creep in when i know i'm not confident enough to carry on,
it's more than disappointment.

in the past i strongly believe i'm able to stick till the end but it seems otherwise.
upon hearing the word i know it's definitely more than disappointment,
it's rather hopeless.

i'm apologetic for being the nasty/lousy one
but trust me,
it's never easy.

i'll learn to change, back to my old self.
it's gonna take me quite a long time to do so,
it's either that or i can have myself feeling hopeless everytime.

which i think, it's not a very wise decision
hence i shall just stick to the former.

besides,
i'm gonna open up the walkway to my heart
in order for it not to suffocate.

through this period of time,
i don't know how am i going to push myself
but whatever it is, i do not have much choice either, do i?

2009-08-27T04:44:00.000-07:00

though baby's in tekong for this few weeks

i'm still able to hang out with him pretty much

as he was on mc for all sorts (:

and recently i joked with him that i'm the potential daughter-in-law after much analysis ...

i guessed you'll most probably be nodding ur head after hearing what i gotta say (:

in case u dunno, someone is fighting with me over my baby's love!

yes, he got someone new and the name's vikki.

i'm incredibly jealous yet i believe i can do nothing.

hence right now, i'm sitting cross-legged waiting for the novelty to wear off.

do you seriously think it's going to happen?.

work's been stressful and at times, blissful.

blissful is when i know i've cleared everything and that noone will come barking at me for the day.

however this is rare to come by.

nevertheless it's still enjoyable when i used my phone!

on second thoughts,

it might not be that great using a iphone as consumers are starting to have doubts on it's safety.

thank god baby's not getting one, i simply think it's not worth getting 1 now.

save your money and use it wisely (:

2009-08-10T04:33:00.000-07:00

it has been 16 mths baby!

he was the one who reminded me today (:

though it wasn't today thats supposed to be the 16 mths!

however i feel contented at the mention of that

we've come this far ...

none of my ex could have make it

hence i'm deeply thankful.

i'm definitely sinking in deeper now,

do not require any swimming floats either

[my cousin offered to buy me one when he saw my nick]

as i'm sinking in with bliss (:

I LOVE YOU PETER ANG AKA TIFFANY' S BABY (:

2009-07-31T22:10:00.000-07:00

Look what i've got!

practically i just won the ultimate spa treat!

it's where i brought baby to have spa with the other time!

i think i truly deserve this afterall (:

Thank you Cleo!

Totally appreciates it (:

On a lighter note,

yesterday was one of the best days at work!

got to realised my boss was actually holding on to all da payments i thought went missing!

i was like OMFG!

was slightly pissed of but then again, i was incredibly relieved upon knowing that.

i mean,

how would you be feeling if you're the one forking out $900 plus for nothing?

hence that explains my HAPPINESS for the whole day (:

pure bliss is what i would describe my feelings.

anyway,

Le Baroque will be my new love besides timber!

their range of music is wide

you can dance to the 80s, 90s or even those recent R&B music the live band plays!

drinks are fantastic though it's all the usual ones.

and my faithful cocktail will never disappoint me (:

Love dancing with darling kris to the music yesternight,

we went in at the right time though a lil too late.

that's definitely a good way to end my night (:

2009-07-29T04:23:00.001-07:00

I'm still stuck at work!

been having loads to do ever since my colleague's on MC.

come to think of it

my work have got it's perks too.

i've my own freedom but i'm not desk-bound.

LOL

well, maybe some of you might get what i mean.

I love it when monsters are not around

i just love being on my own.

Thank god for my iphone otherwise it'll be dead quiet in the office.

now i gotta get back to work.

2009-07-24T08:52:00.000-07:00

time check : 2353

don't expect much

once at a time.

imperfectly perfect.

peter ang chin ling have went back to BMT!

7 weeks inclusive of 2 weeks confinement

what's going to happen to me? :(

gonna stay strong la! LOL!

got tempted by elisa to watch 'RA' movie at pearl centre

however the one i chose was crappy!

i only understand like half of it and i can't interpret what's the movie all about!

all i know is,

everyone's a cheater!

and the couple behind us was obviously going on like rabbits!

hahahahahaha!

heard some noise but being the clumsy one, i couldn't see at all!

waste of my moolah can -.-"

chilled by the river at The Central with starbucks and Cigs,

love this kind of feeling

was slightly inspired by her to strive harder at work.

she's such a public speaker!

dear elisa, you should try hosting those kind of inspirational talks!

i'll be your first listener ... haha.

tomorrow is our dear vivi's bday

her 21st and it seems more exciting than mine!

my 21st was just a mini celebration :)

girls night out!

party party party!

party without baby seems weird too :(

i love kissing and touching his botak head!

miss holidng his hands too :(

2009-07-18T14:15:00.000-07:00

i hate to know that you have chosen her.
hate the fact that she's just another old fucking hag.
i hate it when i know i'm not the one who understand you.
hate it when you never think of our future.
i hate my work to the core yet i can't bring myself to quit.
hate it when my life gets so dry and boring shit.

i hate pretty much everything because right now, everything feel so fake!
why put up a front & lie?
nothing feels real to me anymore.

ought to change my priorities and directions though i'm still slightly lost.
gonna be the emo one soon.

thank god i know someone is still there for me.
this person ain't anyone special.
but i know deep down, i'll always be protected when trouble comes knocking on my door.

however i seriously can't take in everything.
this is pathetic man.

i can't feel anything.
things have changed, including how i feel towards everyone and my thoughts.

i need silence.

enough of hurt, thank you very much.

i think i do not deserve anymore.

take everything back and take it away.
for it's not even mine to hold.

i hate you.

once again, thank you for making me lose all faith & hope.

so pointless for me to do anything at all.

2009-07-10T10:53:00.001-07:00

honey wee is sleeping on my bed right now!
she's the 2nd one to stay overnight (:

nowadays things aren't getting any better for me.
more complications than ever,
guilty as charged,
i'm regretting.
teared a lil while at work,
can't belive this happening to me.

pondering if i should really change my priorities to make my life better.
i just wanna stay strong and happy though it's incredibly hard to at this moment.
besides that, my health department ain't looking good for me.
asthma might be haunting me soon,
apparently, i seems to have breathing difficulties more often recently.

things are going downhill people,
i need to support myself, need to keep reminding myself to be independent.
i doubt i can though, am still the girl who needs someone to give her tender loving care.

on a lighter note,
i'm able to use a i phone now!
i really feel so business like and grown up
but hey, nothing's been changed.
i'm still the one who's broke! LOL

Bless me and wish me luck friends, terribly in need of it.

2009-06-30T08:53:00.000-07:00

hey darlings and honeys! here i come again! (:

currently i'm trying to survive through work each day, torturing :(

watched transformer at Iluma and it's great!

my 1st time catching this movie so i'm rather in awe of it

baby bought me a bracelet which i totally adore and can't keep my eyes off it, thankie love!

lunch buffet at orchard hotel and the amount of food we had was able to last us through dinner. LOL!

pubbing with darling kris for a while on monday! i must be insane.. LOL!

catching up with honey vivi just now and i quarrelled with a china sales lady!

don't ever enter "ZI YI" this shop,
over there you do not have the freedom of speech
and if you cristicse their clothes, they'll come barking at you like lunatics!
so if you want me to rate their service, i can't as they don't even have any for me to start with
it's at fourth floor ... 04-33 i think.

on a happier note,
i just got myself a DKNY bag!
however that bag is full of the logo in a jumble up format hence from afar,
you might think it's bugis street stuff :(
i'm seriously affected by friend's comment about this bag!
maybe i should have gotten the other colour
see! i'm regretting once again. LOL

2009-06-09T08:02:00.000-07:00

lets see what life have done for me till now,
nothing much except my mindset changed slightly.

gonna start dragging myself to work again!
suddenly felt so demoralised to work,
guess i've been running around too much.

with that aside, i'm proud enough to say we're still holding on after 14 mths!
finally got him his birthday plus 1st yr annniversary pressie, a Nautical watch.
the slightly rugged type which he's looking for.
though it's of no suprise but i hope u'll remember it as a pressie from me (:

truth to be told,
sometimes i can't interpret your thoughts & i definitely can't read it either.
hence i would appreciate if you could voice it out gently.

i'm left with roughly a year more to be with you physically
so baby, do love me with TLC please (:

2009-05-29T11:14:00.001-07:00

the june holidays is really tearing me apart bits by bits!
my work load definitely increased!
but my salary didn't!

I'm truly loving the GREAT SINGAPORE SALES!
and i soooo wanna head down to the Club 21 bazaar sales!
it's ending soon and i'm tempted till the extent of wanting to forgo the JB trip with baby!

finally did shopping today and i got a top & pants for only 45 bucks!
i need more pleaseeeeee

i missed out on 2 friend's bday celebration!
fiona's & kristine's!
so sorry babe but i bet you girls had hell lotsa fun right?
so upset that i've to give it a miss due to my work :(
what's new? LOL.

oh baby, bring me to the bazaar sales would you?

i admit my mind is full of shopping now!

2009-05-23T09:20:00.000-07:00

work is insane!

i spent 90% of my working hours rushing to schools

and the remaining 10% in da office rushing out stuff.

however the previous week i tend to do OT for 2 straight days.

It will be the same for this coming week.

i think i'm losing myself at work ...

totally ignorant of what has been changing.

i've changed, in a way.

i supposed i just get more tensed up easily for no particular reason.

having been working the past 6 months,

i'm not making any progress in my savings

and i desperately wants to get my hair done!

what i'm talking about here is actually a hair extension!

i don't care if it's gonna spoil my hair or not

i only wants it back! :(

what should i do?

HAIR EXTENSION! Definitely (:

On a lighter note,

peter is no longer driving 'Mr Bean'

the car which carry our memories (:

Goodbye mr bean, you'll be missed!

Somehow some things just don't serve the same purpose anymore.

have a great night!

2009-05-18T05:27:00.000-07:00

i feel so sad ...
i think i've become such a boring girl
that everyone just want a piece of you instead.

maybe i just expect too much,
expect the same from you
because i practise what i preach.

once i said i stop, i really do.

you're not in the wrong but ur words just hit me so hard to let me realised this.
i mean who will like to hear what i heard especially when u thought things are going on well and fun even.

tonight is really not the night at all.

2009-05-17T06:34:00.000-07:00

my baby is so cute!
he keeps calling me just to let me hear the sound of helicopters!
he's on night shift from onwards (:

thus we met up this morning to go for test-drive!
among the 2 cars he tested, i prefer the one with leather seats
and when i told him that
he commented back by saying i won't be the one sitting behind
so he told me to try the front seats instead ... LOL!

we didn't spend much time together
but it was good enough to lie on the bed and cuddle with him tightly (:

thank god we always manage to make it up at the end of the day after some bickering.
i'm truly in love with u and 14 mths is coming soon! heh.

2009-05-16T12:02:00.000-07:00

a weekend without my baby is definitely ain't a good one

no worries bee as i know you can't help it either (:

thank god for my sweetheart vivi!

otherwise i'll be real lonely today.

met up with the girlies in da late afternoon

shopped at most of the 'upstair shops'

and i found this gorgeous summer dress!

its the colour combination which caught my attention

hence it's now resting peacefully in my wardrobe (:

i believe every lady/girl needs a vibrant looking dress for this summer (:

stopped over at pluck and we indulged their limited selection of ice cream!

looks ordinary yet the taste is delicious enough for me to lick it off my spoon totally!

and with a huge mirror infront of us,

we would, without doubts, not missed out on any opportunities to cam whore!

even when all the patrons left, we continued doing the thing we love most (:

next stop was wisma & taka!

tried my best to search for a perfect pink top/dress/skirt yet there was nothing ideal enough.

and i almost lay my hands on a pair of HOT PINK wedges!

but i know i can't as i've over 10 pairs of foot wears in the cupboard!

thus it's not easy for me to decide if i need another pair.

now even if i were to get a bag, i might have to throw away those bags rotting in my room.

because i've more than 10 bags.

Bags & Shoes are my biggest weakness!

I. JUST. CAN'T. HELP. IT

"ABSENCE MAKES A HEART GROW FONDER"

this is so freaking true!

i can't stop my mind from flashing image of peter

and i definitely can't stop for an hr without thinking of him.

when i shopped, i shopped for him too!

in my mind i was wondering what i could get for baby in order to see a bright smile on his face (:

if i'm not wrong, vivi is pretty sick of hearing me complimenting peter every now and then. lol

i'm just loving it!

2009-05-12T07:19:00.000-07:00

this lady here is feeling down.
as she won't be seeing her bf much till next tues!
the bf will be on a 13hr shift duty from tomorrow onwards.

so sad.so sad. so sad. so sad. so sad. so sad. so sad. so sad. so sad. so sad. so sad.

i can only hug my teddy bear to sleep while dreaming of baby :(

speaking of which, i felt so ashamed to get michie darling a pooh bear.
i didn't know she have tons of teddy bears in her room already!
sorry babe!

poor her, the birthday girls looks lethargic [she's down with flu!]
we had crystal jade & cold rock!
love the cold rock, mix & match!

and i always love our small small gathering (:

P.S Dear vivi, kindly stop pushing me aside though i appear to be stronger. LOL!

2009-05-09T20:06:00.000-07:00

everytime when i look at baby,

i'd realise with love that he's a big boy in my heart (:

and i'll always feel thankful to have him around in my life

for he was always there to support me and giving me words of comfort.

besides, he let me understand that even if no one will be there to catch me when i fall,

he'll still be the one behind supporting.

i swear to god i've never felt like this before.

the power of love.

Life is pretty fixed by now.

Work life is getting stable at a rather slow pace

Love life is getting better at end of the day (:

and MOST OF MY FRIENDS ARE WORKING!

so none will be exactly free on the weekdays

except for the lil one who'll still bother to date me out!

her exams will be over in a day's time!

and we'll be hanging out soon for an early celebration for DARLING MICHIE!

her sexy 22nd birthday dinner with us!

i know it'll be a simple one however with us around, you better not expect a quiet night alright?

cos we're 2 crazy ladies over here! ((:

i can't wait for tuesdays and wednesday!

both days are hyping me up!

and where is my dear yihui who have disppeared into thin air after that message!

Here is jessy who i went singing with yesterday!

By the way E,

you're just a reflection of who you thought i'm

calling people out just to accompany you when u're in a new environment

and calling him again when you only needed help.

so much for saying we're the ones neglecting you.

2009-04-22T03:53:00.000-07:00

Gosh, baby have been real busy this few days entertaining his friends from china & taiwan!
and he made it up to me a lil by sending me home from zhenghua just now ((:

tomorrow he's gonna do so again by fetching me from east coast primary school! *evil grins*
poor him, after the gastric flu on monday, he havent been resting well.
but never mind because i'm gonna bring him for a spa treat next thurs!
we'll be going to the ultimate at shaw centre! 27th floor!
the whole session will last for 1 and a 1/2 hr!
and friday we'll most probably be checking into hotel!
heh, i just can't wait for next week fabulous weekend! ((:

seriously, i doubt i'll be staying at my current job for long
it's tough doing it ... i've fear of going to work.
so not looking forward anymore ...

booohoooo ...
however i love the trainers!
the recent gathering at party world made us go high!

how i wish life can be easier at work :(

2009-04-15T05:14:00.000-07:00

I'M JUST HERE TO ANNOUNCE THE NEWS OF ME HAVING WISDOM TOOTH!

LAUGH OUT LOUD!

ok, i'm apologetic for being such a dumb dumb

but hey!

i always feel slightly abnormal as compared to others!

to those who already had chicken pox and wisdom tooth growing!

even till now, i've not had any of those except for wisdom tooth

so it's perfectly fine if i'm overwhelm with that right?

anyway the ang's family really cute and sweet

they don't mind changing the Jb trip to saturday instead of friday

and the reason being is partly related to me (:

below is the conversation btw baby & his dad/mommy

Peter : so when are we going to go JB?

Dad/Mommy : Saturday if not your huixin also cant go ...

isn't that nice of them?

was touched and exhilarated when i heard that

i hearts the ang family totally!

i'm definitely part of them by now ((:

so baby, don't ever think of ditching me in da near future!

this is not a statement, this is a threat! LOL!

love ya and tata gorgeous!

2009-04-14T08:29:00.000-07:00

after 7 hours of sleep
i'm still feeling as lethargic as ever!

today's our boss birthday!
everyone of us chipped in to get a bouquet of flowers for her.
and i must say, white roses & lily really looked nice and elegant when placed together!
thats it! i'm so gonna have white roses the next time round ... HAHA!
we decorated her door with all those notes we wrote for her
and in return, she bought each of us a box of merci chocos!
how sweet is that ((:

and u knw what?
today's my honey first day of work! CONGRATULATIONS GORGEOUS!
you've survived.
shopped and dined with her at far east
she shopped for her office apparals while i just walked around endlessly ...
till i saw the coat i wanted to buy a mth back!
it was still on sales however my intuition tells me it'll be a impractical purchase
hence i listed out the pros & cons ...
even though there were more cons, i was still not convinced enough.
Thus i called baby and he initiated to pay half of it!
that really caught me by suprise!
made the next call to kristine darl and she told me to get it!
so i supposed when one is having such a good bargain, you shouldn't reject it.
in the end, i got myself that coat and a new pair of sandals which i definitely need it for work.
i even got myself a membership at the sixties!
now i can get office wear at a cheaper price! (:

right now, i'm feeling freaking broke!
i must stick firm to my savings plan!
2 weeks more and money will be rolling in once more!
can't wait for the payday !

i love you hubby and i sincerely thank you for everything ((:
you're indeed my love ...

2009-04-13T08:42:00.000-07:00

with all the chaos going on in bangkok
don't you feel lucky to be home?
i do.
especially after getting the call from my elder sis ...
i totally forgot about her holiday trip to thailand a few days back.
and when she touched down, she gave me a call.
giving me the details of the situation over there.
shopping malls were ALL CLOSED DOWN
furthermore the road leading to airport will be blocked soon!
so thank god she was smart enough to request to be in da stand-by list for flight.
hence she's now safely back home with my gifts (:
i didn't even know that thailand has declared itself to be in an emergency.
gosh, what a dumb sister i'm!

with my sister back,
my precious will also be gone sooon :(
it's been so nice to have them around ...
at least there's someone to sleep with me!
oh my precious i love both of you! *hugs*

hubby's having golf competition!
he did well for today so hooray!
happy for you baby ((:

i thought i've lots to write but now i doubt so.
so goodnight gorgeous (:
and goodnight my love! (baby!)

2009-04-08T08:34:00.000-07:00

my precious are back!
they put a smile on my face and warms up my heart ((:

jus had a phone conversation with baby
talked bout the difference btw then and now
surprisingly there's quite a few as we don't really go in depth for this topic in da past.

kinda upset to hear what's on his mind
yet i still love to have this heart to heart talks every now and then.
as baby hardly complains hence i'll never know whats wrong.
however this is also the best part about him.
loving me enough to forgive me in every single ways.

loving someone is to love them the way they're
choosing to be with them is a risk to take.
noone is perfect or up to standard in each's eyes.
learning to forgive and accommodate close up the gap slowly.
soon, you'll learn to appreciate his/her beauty.
say may be easier than done
but if you don't ever try ...
you'll never know how far can the 2 of u go.

just like us ...
a year with so many obstacles to go through
we're still holding on to the belief that we're meant for each other.
tried to give up but failed eventually ...
we'll never learn our mistakes totally
as we're still at the exploring stage.

somehow we'll end up repeating it again and again.
it's incredibly hard to let go when we already have the approval from our families.
i feel so blessed to be treated as part of them ...
and so thankful to know that everyone is supporting this r/s of ours ((:

baby,
can we ever get back to how we were in the past?
i know we won't have the time for it ...
and i know i needa wait for at least 2 years for it to happen.
but i'm just hoping that we can at least have half of it ...
those sweet tender loving care ...
it's been quite sometime since we had it.
won't you agree?

i'll learn to be more demure ...
and you ....
i hope u know what's expected of you ((:

we're only perfect in our own ways ...
cheers.

2009-03-28T06:27:00.000-07:00

Life's a joke for me.

the same thing is happening.

sure felt lousy but what can one do.

put on a fake smile and thats it.

everything is going downhill at this minute.

i can truly say.

no one understands my feelings now.

nobody can make a guess of what i want even when i've said it out.

it's that tiring.

now you tell me to hang loose ...

oh boy, don't u know that sure hurts?

this is all a fucking big joke for me.

i absolutely hates to go through what i've to.

however no one is giving me any choice

am i being forced into a corner?

or would u say i deserved it instead?

i don't wish to face much people now.

it's a mixture of feelings.

the mixture which i hate the most.

the one which got me tearing at night ...

as much as i hate it

i believe it'll soon be gone ...

both of you ...

2009-03-20T22:00:00.001-07:00

i've no idea why i can't blog with my lappy!

saying cookie being disabled?

no idea.

work is getting bitchy!

am trying to stay on in order to make me a stronger person!

i've so much to learn.

i need my social life!

it's pretty difficult to have one when i'm being tied down by work

however i still managed to meet up some darlings to make up for it (:

anyway

what's so good about myprivatelife till he have to read about her life?

hmm.

just some girl who hopes to get a free ride?

you definitely am ...

don't ever deny the fact (:

i need my pay ...

just set aside 300 and i'm only left with more than a hundred to spend till next weekend!

all thanks to the few purchases i made.

i'm on a strict diet now.

been cutting down on carbo!

yet i can't kick away my coffee cravings.

starbucks still my love afterall ((:

a year is coming

and i've been trying not to be over dependent on bf

i supposed i'm getting the hang of it bits by bits.

try harder and i'll succeed!

is it true that girls with good figures are more attractive?

if thats the case

then leave me alone.

just. go. away.

get it?

((:

2009-03-11T08:21:00.000-07:00

clearing my room is considered as an impossible mission for me.

as my room is tiny in size

i've no idea where to place my stuff ..

all those cosmetics & skin care products are piling up!

a million thanks to my eldest sis for being the sponsor

however i doubt i'll need that much to fill up most of my shelves!

now i have to start clearing them off.

anyone interested?

and i need to make a trip down chinatown to get materials!

i believe my tables do need a bit of deco

i wanna go all pink & purple!

gonna make it real comfy (if possible) for baby!

as he's gonna pop by more often!

we made a pact ...

furthermore i really need to be home nowadays.

btw,

i'm missing my sweetheart darl kristine!

she's been down with serious throat infection

throughout the years i know her,

this is the 1st time she's gotten terribly sick

so get well soon babe!

it's been so long since you overnight at my crib!

lets do that again soon! ((:

baby's having competition nowadays

i'm praying for baby to play well

i realised i've been rather eager to know the outcome!

PLAY WELL BABY .. I'M ALWAYS SUPPORTING U NO MATTER WHERE I'M OR WHAT I'M DOING!

ILU!

2009-03-05T10:12:00.000-08:00

sometimes i wonder

if fate decided to take a chance

would it better for anyone of us?

or are we still gonna live in agony and whine with the remaining energy?

there's so many IF in this world

no point dwelling on it

however i believe one can always dream.

i wonder when was the happiest time in my life ...

back when i won't ask for that much in life

or when i was just a lil girl who've no clues bout the way to lead her life?

the grass is always greener on the other side

why can't i stop being envious and be contented instead?

maybe i'm beginning to have a clearer idea of what i want/need?

is that an excuse or a reason?

i don't even have the answer myself.

i don't wanna regret when i've the chance to make things right.

2009-02-09T06:47:00.000-08:00

work is truly overwhelming me!

and i've a new address for my blog (:

people with pea brain shouldn't have the privilege to read my blog.

they aren't entitled to that.

2009-02-05T07:33:00.000-08:00

it's awfully sweet of my colleague, jessy, to get this lil cake for me!

she actually know about today!

i don't even remember it

no one else remember either

so i was surprised.

it's always the small lil things which matter the most to girls

work is exhausting

and

at the end of the day

i just wanna be dote on and being taken good care of.

why when i've so much to say

it seems so difficult to make me reveal it

bit by bit ...

away ...

2009-02-02T06:12:00.000-08:00

i'm sooo fretting over what to wear tml

i know me sounds bimbotic

but i've planned my outfits for the next few days!

work is hectic ...

lots of preparation to be done by US.

i'll only be able to relax by the end of feb?

i shall just wait (:

today someone's word hits me hard.

it was val's.

somehow she managed to knock some sense into me .

out of nowhere i felt motivated to work harder.

nobody will get what they want everytime.

being too self confident will bring you down more easily than others.

learn to strike when the iron's hot.

you just got to know when to grab when it's rightfully yours

i still have a few more years before it's too late.

Learn To Live.

The Way You Pictured It.

2009-01-28T00:57:00.000-08:00

i wanna bang bang!

Greetings everyone!

my ang bao this yr is much bigger

because i hopped over to baby's granny there *evil smirk* (:

afterwhich wen jun, keren & bf, kristine & me headed down to boat quay for some drinks.

seems like r/s probs are giving us a big headache!

2nd day of Cny i gambled all da way from aftn till night! LOL

mahjong at my aunt's place first

and lady's luck was definitely shining on me

needless to say,

i won everyone's moolah including my sister :p

baby dropped by for a teeny weeny while

tried his luck at Blackjack and he's good!

maybe we should have combine and make a killing amount of $$$!

at night we visited baby's friends

Lao Yu Sheng with them was hilarious ...

while gambling with them was heart-stopping!!!

playing blackjack seems like a small case as the highest bet was only $10.

however playing in-between was unbelievable!

never in my life did i try playing with $400++ worth of money.

i try betting $100 and i paid back double (baby's money actually)

after a few rounds more

baby won everything back

and that was the end of the game... LOL.

2009-01-23T11:06:00.000-08:00

pay's here!

left with the last day to shop for cny's stuff!

i really need to rush through this time round.

reunion lunch tml with my family

then dinner with baby's family.

followed by somee squeezing with the ppl at chinatown!

i can't wait!

i wanna goo drinking this weekend!!!!!!!!!!

and when will we go for our one rochester miss michy?

time to chill out again sweethearts!

2009-01-17T20:27:00.000-08:00

sweet,

till now

everything is still working out well

((:

i'm glad with what i've now,

who i've now

and

where i'm now.

no matter who i place as my 1st priority
it won't affect my love/concern for anyone.

i know what i'm doing

and i love carrying on with it.

CNY is coming and my pay day is too!

first full time pay ... wheeee!

i've decided to get my baby Wii ....

it's no longer a surpise,

he's always this smart.

no matter how much it's gonna cost me

i know it's worth it ((:

i'm anticipating for CNY!

i've an extra day off!

and i chose it on wed so as to celebrate with my sec sch mates.

it's our annual reunion gathering without fail!

2009-01-01T12:18:00.000-08:00

even before i can post my last entry for year 2008

it has already comes to an end.

For year 2008,

i can't say for sure that i've went through alot in terms of the affairs of the heart/in life.

however i didn't have it easy either.

Just da start ,

i've already hooked up with someone and called it quits within a week.

the next one who comes along is unexpected.

big guy is someone i totally love and respect due to many factors.

he touches me with his love and patient,

he can even guides me through life with practical advice.

till now, he's still the ideal kind.

ended my 2 year stint with sentosa

deeply thankful for all da amazing ppl i met!

each of you taught me a valuable lesson (:

2008 may not be an awesome year for most of us

but still,

i feel as lucky as one can be!

this is a new start which will eventually leads to a good ending i believe.

2008-12-21T11:36:00.000-08:00

tonight is da night i drink by the pool with my gf

and having all sorts of heart-to-heart talks.

the night whereby silly tots are goin thrgh her mind.

it's too early to make any conclusion/assumptions my dear ((:

went half skinny dipping in da pool at 2 am!

freezing cold!!!!!!!

played directions

the game which made us laughed At ourselves

silly ppl yes we are ((:

this is da way to stay overnight at my crib (:

do u knw it's irritatingly hard to type with my acrylic nails?!

kristine is sleeping soundly now,

i ought to do so too.

JB again with baby and his parents ltr on!

sleep tight ppl ((:

2008-12-17T22:28:00.000-08:00

another friend of mine is getting attached!

now i've lesser friend to date for shopping!

i'm half the match-maker so make sure my xmas pressie is super huge alright? ((:

i'm so bored!

baby's busy with ns and golf at the moment

while my friends are busy dating ...

am i supposed to shop alone now?

this sounds pathetic .. haha.

christmas's coming!

but i doubt i'll be doing any exchanging of xmas gift this year

except for baby and a few babes!

now who wanna exchange xmas present?

((:

2008-12-16T20:52:00.000-08:00

oh dear,

i swear i'm no longer suitable to stay overnights at a chalet!

even till now when i've gained back all my sleep

i don't feel energetic.

i feel crappy instead ... eww!

throughout the unexpected 3d2n,

all we did was to just eat, smoke and drink.

what a horrible life ... haha.

we even gambled and i won by playing in-between!

van's bday caked was being smashed onto her face TOTALLY!

we had to clear up the mess

thanks to those who just sat down there and watched us cleaned without helping!

not much pictures were taken.

1st night was totally wasted for the girls

as some of them got drunk

vomit was over the floor and the bedroom

couldn't be bothered to clean up for them

hence we called in the cleaners.

by the time i woke up

van, xunfu and kris had their mac breakie already

thus i ate alone.

once i was back,

van complained about the non-stop talking of xunfu and kris

actually i felt irritated too

hence i went up and told them off for being inconsiderate.

2nd day was mediorce,

shopping and sushi buffet at tampiness mall in da aftn

kate & chu lee came down again

we had a mini bbq and gambled all the way afterwards.

some of them cabbed back home

while the rest of us sat by the beach and chilled

i swear it was an incredible feeling ((:

however the trip to a kopitam afterwards was unbelievable

i can't imagine the distance we actually took to get to the kopitiam.

it was horrendous

felt like giving up but we were already mid-way there

as for this,

we ought to thank our dearest van for giving us a chance to exercise ... LOL.

managed to catch a few hours of sleep before the sun rises

checked out the next morning and weekiat sent us back.

2008-12-11T07:21:00.000-08:00

i've to admit what my silly boy did today was sweet

he appeared on my doorsteps without me suspecting it.

i saw the effort and can definitely feel it.

it's a risk you took.

upon knowing the reason,

i was all smiles again ((:

i'm terribly sorry for the pms-ing shit i gave u this few days.

it was extremely horrendous this morning

yet you took it all in.

Somtimes i do know how much u've been taking in and giving in to me ((:
i'm undoubtedly grateful for this gesture of yours.

i've come to appreciate it though at times

you can still see me berating or hurling unpleasant words at you.

but there'll be no more of those mentioned anymore.

i'm not gonna do that

as one should never treat their love ones that way.

you taught me this through actions and i learned.

being with you means a whole new lesson on love

i learned different things

so much more than ever.

as each incident happened,

i'm becoming to be more grateful and appreciative than ever.

the more it happens,

the more clearly i can feel/see the way you're treating me.

times and times again,

i just gotta say i'm really lucky to have you with me (:

I LOVE YOU BABY

MORE THAN EVER

2008-12-09T18:26:00.000-08:00

this is a delightful read,

a classy chick lit.

i've no idea why but i only go for modern life stories.

so this is good when i wanna shut myself out from the whole world.

2008-12-09T06:37:00.000-08:00

i don't know how am i feeling

it's queer.

am definitely not feeling good.

wanna cry out

yet i can't find out the reason behind it.

i need someone who's able to listen to me quietly.

or rather,

just someone who will be at the other end of the call

accompanying me in silence.

i supposed i'll feel better that way.

2008-12-07T09:53:00.000-08:00

what else can i say?

the clock is ticking real past and i've take no notice of it!

it has been an awesome eight months for now

i'm sure you're preparing for more to come right?

((:

through da different encounters we had,

we grew up together,

picked up the bits and pieces of mistakes made and kept it in our heart.

it isn't meant for us to brood over about.

Instead it's more of like another lesson learnt

which we've to remember in case da history repeats itself.

no doubts we have our fair share of blissful moments & unwanted disagreements too

however this is what keeps da r/s going right?

when it's too perfect to believe, one will starts to worry

so when it's kinda imperfect,

you actually feel good about it

as in our mind

we tend to relate it to the old saying ...

'it's the part & parcel of our life'

oh,

here's another thing!

it finally dawned on me that at times it's best to endure

and keep the mouth shut

till you forget all about it.

((:

2008-12-06T08:29:00.000-08:00

it's not easy to jot down the daily happenings in my life

when i've already lost track of it.

what i can remember is the shopping trip i had with his family last week!

were with his mom, the aunt, cousin & the gf.

at paragon we shopped on our own.

and by the time we gathered,

da silly boy have like 3 tops in his shopping bag!

at time he can be a professional shopaholic!

headed back to taka for a second round

no one got anything except for silly boy's mommy.

those kind of shoes which i would love to have!

however it's slightly pricey for me so no way tiffanyongweising!

Next destination was at Centrepoint

AND FINALLY IT'S MY TURN TO GRAB SOMETHING ... HEHEHE!

Came across this shoe shop selling solelovers & passporte shoes

hence we went in out of curiousity.

what we didn't expect was us staying in there for like close to an hr?

maybe like 45 mins?

i swear it's really this true.

the silly boy was pretty fussy with da sandals/slippers

while i was trying to make a decision for the shoes too.

ended up i still bought the 1st pair of boots cum heels which i love at 1st sight!

btw,

is there any terms for a pair of boots with heels?

i'm jus curious though ((:

the mommy also got herself a dress & a top for a riduculous price!

i mean do one have to spend that much?

all of us then stopped by starbucks for coffee!!!!

our legs are calling for a break!

the cousin & the gf

the aunt

the mommy

continued the journey at Robinson

baby got a braun buffel wallet [both of us love the design so much!]

the aunt bought shirts for her husband and something else.

the cousin bought another shirt plus tie.

for me,

it's always fun to go out and carry lotsa shopping bags home!

like what i told baby ...

when i got my first pay cheque ...

i'm sure gonna shop like madddddddddd and have my both hands full of shopping bags!

it's a wish which will come true eventually once i hit da jackpot! ((:

2008-12-05T09:24:00.000-08:00

for my character,

i hate to repeat things again and again for more than 3 times?

i finds it extreme pointless and stupid as in the end, nothing will still be done.

if you're close to me,

you should jolly well knows what i want.

and i believe i don't have to repeat myself ever again on the same thing.

unless you're somenoe who is a stranger.

2008-11-30T17:49:00.000-08:00

if you're someone who believes in tradition

then i reckon you would have heard the saying about being a bridesmaid/sister for more than 3 times and u won't be able to get married.

just within the year of 2008,

i'm gonna be bridemaid/sister for the 2nd time

and it's all for the sake of peter's & the ang baos, heh.

28th of dec i'll be doing it for his cousin, vivian.

i'm excited as i've another exuse to shop for a new dress!
the dinner will be at goodwood park hotel

everything will be conduct by the poolside, how pretty can that be?

the first time i've dinner at jewel box is all thanks to peter's sis

the first time i can have dinner at goodwood park hotel is all thanks peter's cousin too.

now being with him is really a whole new sensation for me.

Not only do i know what is it like to be close with my bf's family,

i actually learned alot.

everyday when he have relatives at his place,

they will ask about me especially the dad who always asked the mom where is her daughter-in-law ((:

i'm thrilled to know they have actually treated me as part of their family.

not only this,

darling van and weekiat have both starts calling me mrs ang!

i love the new title

and i'm most definitely enjoying my life with peter now.

2008-11-29T08:51:00.000-08:00

it's time for another update [as instructed by baby.]

i'm pure lazy and my lappy is pretty much dying on me

hence i'm using baby's.

am in the midst of 'the house bunny'

however i think it might be better if i stop procastinating and write now.

stayed over at baby's yesterday

as i was at his place till pretty late

caught 'quantum of solace' at cine

then received a call from baby's mom regarding the fall of his grandma.

headed down to the granny's place to fetch them

they went chinatown to get a maid while baby accompanied me to get a bag for my mom

i just wanna make her happy ((:

had chili crab for dinner! it was kinda big and sweet!

played word challenge with baby and he lost 6 packet of burger biscuits.. LOL!

and i wanna do acrylic nails tomorrow!!!!
had dim sum again today ...

bought a pair of adidias shoe

indeed it's jus another plain white shoes

but baby and i both love it as it's very sleek looking,

it's from the sleek series anyway so that explains why.

futhermore they have the gold logo at the side.

managed to purchase it at a very cheap price all thanks to baby!

it's a 60% discount off so what do u think? worth it right?

baby always make me a happy girl! lovelove!

by the way,

i believed most of us have been reading the news lately regarding the death of lo hwei yen.

it came as a shock for me and nonetheless,

i'm kinda being affected by it and my fear of terriosm grew.

you can never know when will it be our turn.

now even if i wanna step out of sg, i'll think twice.

this news truly hits me hard,

i may not know this person in any single ways,

but she's one of us, a singaporean.

this may sounds cliche ..

however i wish that u'll fork out a min of urs to think about it.

don't you feel the same way too?

people say some terrorist are afraid hence they resort to violence.

then what about us?

what about those innoncent victims?

aren't they equally terrified too?

everyone's living in fear.

2008-11-21T07:54:00.000-08:00

time check : 2355

and right now i'm waiting for huijun [baby's sister] to bathe finish

and we'll continue doing some stuff for the wedding.

and yes i'm staying overnight here

however is with her sis :(

so tomorrow will be the wedding!

the long awaited one for me as i'm gonna be her bridesmaid!

my first time ever ... sure gonna be fun i hope!

heh

more updates and picca coming up!

BABY IS BULLYING ME NOW BY SNATCHING THE BATHROOM!

GOTTA RUNNNNNNNNNNNNNN!

2008-11-18T06:07:00.000-08:00

oh my i'm spending!
spending when i'm out of job is not an impressive idea at all!
don't ask me why because it's a slightly long idea.
partly my fault afterall so yup.
bought a dress at $21.50!
it's like $15 cheaper than marina square!
the diff is quite alot so thank god i managed to get it cheap!
kristine accompanied me to the bridal shop to try on my bridesmaid gown for the 3rd time.
finally i'm satisfied ...
can't wait to wear it on this saturday!
got baby to buy the elegant looking necklace for me.
i got another bracelet just for that day too.
it seems like i'm preparing for my own wedding though ... LOL!
french manicure on fri!!
sweetie kristine is gonna accompany me again .. oops!
shopping with her was great fun!
i even got my fake lashes!
i simply love wearing it!!!
ain't gonna waste my moolah on da heels
i've had a pair of white heels at home so no point
i don't have that much money left either .. haha.
can i find a job only when baby is back to ns?
please baby?

2008-11-11T06:49:00.000-08:00

today's work was interesting!

learned how to set up the room for H.I.P

so i'll be doing on my own the next week!

got into the playground and disturb those kids

saw one who's terribly adorable and i hugged her!

can you imagine how grateful i'm to get this job?

i really ought to thank my ex-manager for it .. LOL!

♥
♥

♥

punched out at 12 plus

sara & me met riz at cine for da movie

sara treated us to it, including our snacks!

high sch musical 3 is awesome!

i mean, you don't even need to know what's going on for the previous 2 movie

you just need to know like who's related to who and their personality will do.

i'm never a BIG FAN of hsm3

but this time round i asked baby to watch with me AGAIN!

yes, i wanna!

it's that fantastic people ((:

♥

3 of us had lunch at far east

now riz was the one who treated us to it.

they're just a bunch of queer ppl,

they LOVE treating each other.

it's gonna be my turn when i get my pay! ((:

♥

shopped alone while waiting for baby to pick me up

wanted to get a bag desperately but couldn't find any nice ones around.

shopped at suntec later on and we had gelare for dinner.

while baby had a look at his friend's phone shop

i actually walked over to marina square to look for my darling&jiaqing.

♥

baby then came and looked for us with his new phone [AGAIN!]

hopefully this phone will stay with him for loooooooooooooong!

it better be otherwise i'm gonna nag like mad ... heh.

da 4 of us went on a double date ...

was roaming around in a frantic search of an ideal bag

however to my dismay,

there wasn't much bag shops hence i left empty-handed.

♥

no wait!

i didn't left empty-handed!

baby actually play those machine games whereby u've to slot in a dollar coins to catch a teddy!

and he got one christmas stitch for me!

i wanted a stitch so he tried his luck!

i bet the god can feel the sincerity of him thus he gave baby the luck to get one!

LOL

i know i'm plain silly =p

BABY I JUST LOVE YOU SOOOOO MUCH!

MUACKS

MUACKS!

2008-11-10T06:22:00.000-08:00

i can't believe this

i'm actually LOVING my new job!

i mean who many times do u actually hear me saying ILOVEMYNEWJOB?

i doubt there's alot of times

oh well,

this is something totally unexpected and i feel so damn fcuking lucky!

moreover i'm gonna watch high sch musical 3 with my boss tml

so it's gonna be a half day work!

followed by a off day on thurs [i can't have it initially]

i was practically on cloud nine after a call from sara[my manager].

besides, my job scope is what i'll most probably like.

something related to events, just a smaller scale type.

other than that,

i'm allowed to bring in my laptop and surf the net as there's wireless connection

or i can just hang ard and chat with the staff.

freak,

i still can't believe i manage to get this job!

the only sad part is i actually burn my weekends

and the pay is pretty pathetic

but we'll see about it 3 mths later.

2008-11-03T09:32:00.000-08:00

baby is sleeping!

RIGHT BESIDE ME

it's a bliss to have him hugging me to sleep

the best part would be to have him planting a kiss on my lips to wake me up!

*a rare chance*

been shopping with baby too!

he got himself a pair of shoes from Domanchi

i adore the colour combination & the material.

even his friend complimented it

so baby shld trust my taste too! LOL

as for me,

i got a new causal looking dress

and 2 pair of jeans plus a top from Levis Signature store.

i hope i'm gonna wear the jeans out often!

otherwise it's gonna be a total waste!

but still, i love the jeans!

maybe sometimes i shouldn't be bothering so much

afterall i do believe in fate

and i leave everyting in fate's hand.

2008-11-03T02:51:00.000-08:00

life's a bitch

same goes for the people i know.

this blog's gonna remain as private for the time being.

if you're really such a faker,

then i'll make sure i behave the same way like u do

but only to you my dear.

don't ever forget the fact that i'm a bitch too sweetie ((:

lots have been going on ...

first of all,

i ended my 2 year stint with sentosa retail.

it's a sad thing but i know i ought to keep going.

there's no way i'll be able to stick to this part-time job forever.

as you know,

the most difficult part was definitely saying goodbye.

for hung meng,

i didn't know how to do it the right way without both of us ending up with tears in the eyes.

he was the one whom i totally trust with all my secrets related to work.

there won't be anything he won't know for sure.

my smoking khaki and also my office gossip partner!

i know he always give in to me regarding the stocks stuff

hence, most of the time u won't see me clearing stocks.

i sincerely thank him for everything !

he even bought me a whole cake and a keychain as my farewell gift.

i saw tears in his eyes ...

but i promise i'll be back to the island and look for u!

for elisyl,

i wasn't that close to you but what u told me touches my heart.

i didn't know my leaving would actually made u cry ...

i'm greatly consoled by the fact that u remembered me as the one who taught u almost everything in the shop.

a mentor, like what u said.

i couldn't bear to leave,

i seriously think i couldn't either.

from a newbie all the way till a unofficial '2nd-in-charge'

i'm contented.

contented to have the trust from the supervisor and my manager.

what my manager said was unexpected,

thank you for trusting me and not berating me for any mistakes made throughout this 2 years.

i know all of you have been very lenient to me when i admit my mistakes.

it's only on the last day then i realised my passion for this job

and once again,

i realised how i fell in love with this sunny island ((:

2008-10-24T10:23:00.000-07:00

JUST A THOUGHT

9 mths ago ...

we were only each other's companion.

calling each other out onlywhen we're bored or lonely.

we didn't expect anything more other than that.

however you became my saviour then.

whenever i've any problems,

i know i could count on you.

hence just a phonecall manage to unload all my burdens.

you even lend me a helping hand, your ears and ur shoulders.

you saw the weaker side of me.

3 months later

we've a commitment.

at that point of time,

your stand in my heart were still not important enough to occupy the whole of me.

till now,

i still can't believe how you could manage to overturn the tables and make things go your way ((:

to date,

you've already occupied the whole of me

and even took up all the space in my heart.

all i can say is ...

i love you

i need you

and most importantly,

I WANT YOU IN MY !

you should know by now that i wanna every single min with you ((:

2008-10-23T06:09:00.000-07:00

i'm, frankly speaking,

no longer interested to do any blog updates for the time being.

in fact i'm pretty lazy to do so.

but i know i LOVE these stuff a few months back.

maybe i shaLL just have this blog on haitus for a week or so

since i RARELY typed nowadays.

by the way,

the weather now is amazingly soothing to snuggle with ur love ones on bed!

or rather,

you should go for a form of exhausting exercise which will leave u breathless and satisfied!

in a way it'll actually allows you to keep moving and shaking!

sometimes if u get to be the one who control then obviously u'll be on top

but when it's ur turn to relax ...

i think it's better to lay back and enjoy ... hmm.

2008-10-10T20:29:00.000-07:00

i hate it when a guy don't know how to take initiative.

even when a girl is down/crying,

the guy still won't take any initiative till the girl ask.

i hate it when this happens.

seriously,

how many times does one have to repeat the same thing over and over again?

2008-10-09T09:56:00.000-07:00

oh dear,

i supposed my days in sentosa might be coming to an end soon!!

provided i manage to find a job.

our in-charge will be transferred out and up to IOS,

thats a terrible news for us ...

just in case you've no idea as to how close we're to her [in-charge],

i'm going to give u a rough idea.

we always call our her 'MA MA LING'

we agreed that this nickname suits her best because we feel 'the motherly love' from her ((:

she taught us alot of things ...

her way of coaching is completely diff from others.

we love doing it her way ...

no matter what, she'll never scold us.

however she will just nag with a smile ((:

she's always getting us some stuff after each overseas trip,

she used to buy tibits and share with us too!

Because of her,

she had lotsa fun together as a grp in palawan,

i always believe that she can livens up everybody's mood.

besides, she always trust us and same goes for us too.

we'll always share with her everything about our personal life/work issue.

she's always there to listen and help out in giving advice.

she's not someone who express herself well

but all of us know that she don;t bear to leave us too ((:

without her around,

no one will be that hardworkin anymore.

none of us is willing to work however we can't do that.

hence we still got to stick around and do what we're supposed to do.

i'm glad she know everyone is hardworking because of her.

and she knows for sure our morale will be greatly affected!

not only that,

'MA MA LING' is also someone i truly respect.

she trusted me enough to let me run the shop when she's not around,

and gave me the authority to look after the staff even though i was only a part-timer.

no other in-charge ever give such a chance before,

or rather they don't trust me enough.

tears filled carolyn & my eyes today,

we just can't help it.

like i said before,

if ma ma ling don't ever needs my help again,

i'll just leave.

well, hope i'll have a better job! ((:

2008-10-06T08:31:00.000-07:00

just for your information

this will be a lenthy entry

AND

the no. of piccas might be a bit too much and quite disorientated actually ((:

like i said before,

i'm not a organised person.

by the way,

today baby gave me a pleasant surprise!

this is something out of what i expected!

oh baby!

THIS SURPRISE IS DEFINITELY SUCCESSFUL!

lunching at THE LINE @ Shangri La Hotel is where baby promised to bring me to when he can drives out.

and this is, without doubt, my 1st time there!

i like the place...

it was pretty!

sat by the windows while we enjoy our food.

i ate extremely slow and baby made more trips to the food counter than i do!

obviously baby ate more than i do ... lol!

i actually just grab a few bites here and there.

my favourite was the dessert counter!

it was filled with deliciously looking tiramisu, cheesecake, tepanyaki ice cream, durian puff and etc.

i pulled baby with me ...

needa him to take another plate for the dessert

grab a few and baby was laughing at me

because i got to eat all of it alone.

once again,

i took only a few bites each ...

oh my,

it waz apparently a pretty afternoon lunch! ((:

nua-ed at hm for a few hours before the meet up with elisa.

was feeling uneasy as i didn't know what to expect,

it turns out well,

no cold shoulders or whatever crap.

i miss her.

to date,

bf and i've been together for exactly 6 months!

yessssssss

this is definitely something not easy to come by.

what i'm trying to say is ...

during this 6 mths,

bf had to serve the nation

and coincidentally,

bf met with an accident also.

this incident enabled him to get out of the camp

hence i got to see him more often without the need to wait for every weekend.

through this incident,

we got to know each other better,

baby knows exactly what i expect from my bf.

on the other hand,

i've become closer with his family & relatives too ((:

baby did suffer alot during this period,

having to go through 2 operations is not an easy feat.

furthermore he gotta stay overnight for observation,

i hate it when he have to be alone.

when he was being discharged,

life at home was not easy either ...

he had difficulty moving around.

the wounds on the knee hurts terribly at night

yet he pretended to be strong infront of me.

try staying at home for ard 1 month plus and u'll know how he felt then.

till now,

the knee is not fully recover yet.

while baby went through so much,

i was not doing my best as a gf.

i was not understanding and caring enough.

moreover, i'm always giving him shit loads of stuff to handle.

i felt terribly sorry ...

because i know exactly how hard baby tried to make both parties happy [his family & me]

because of me,

he was being nagged at every now and then.

because of me,

he went to the extra mile just to make me happy.

i know it,

i know it all in my heart

but i gotta let u know that...

i would really love to share all ur problems

so pls tell me if anything happens to u.

i don't wish to be kept in the dark ((:

however i supposed both of us are a lil grateful for this accident too!

with bf staying at home all days

i visited him frequently

and subsequently,

i had more time on hands to mingle ard with da family.

to keep it short,

everyone accepted me

and they definitely welcome me into this big family of theirs((:

baby is definitely elated and contented

as i'm the 1st official gf he brought home!

i've even been on shopping trips with the mom & sis and baby

a few lunch trips with the dad, mom & baby.

besides, bf's gonna take me in as her bridesmaid this year!

i'm thankful for everything baby

you've tolerated with me for more than what is considered as enough.

you never fail to cheer me up and encourage me better than anyone else.

because of u,

i know i'll always smile brightly after another quarrel/bad day.

hope u'll never give up on me ...

as i still wanna hold your hands to walk through everything!

after we've been through,

i'll make it up to you ((:

THE LINE @ SHANGRI LA HOTEL

2008-10-04T10:01:00.000-07:00

it's a miracle i can have the weekends off!

normally i'll be back at work on saturday morning.

hence that explains why i'm in a good mood!
without fail
baby gave me surprise again this time round

[after my non-stop ranting though]
he appeared at my doorstep with mac breakfast

and i was grinning from ear to ear.. heh

my scrumptious mac breakkie ((:

my silly love

after bf left,

i went back to get changed for shopping!

met up with ivy at bugis,

i was late for 15mins! =p

accompanied her to get the SPARKILING CANDLES before leaving for far east.

look how tired we were!

energetic after 1 puff ... just kidding!

alright,
i shall now declared that tiffany ong is terribly broke!
as u know,

i just bought my phone

and now i bought something else as well.

take a look below!

guess what's inside?

my long awaited coach wallet which is so last season?

i like da fact that it's all hot pink insideLOVES

though i've got what

i'm not exactly going ga ga over it
nonethelss, i'm glad to have it ((:

however i supposed ivy will be happier than me as she got herself a burberry wallet.

thats her favourite.

anyway we continued shopping at far east

then proceeded to wisma.

met up with peilian after sucha long time!

always a good girlfriend to me

we shopped ard taka and wisma till zabrina comes.

chilled at starbucks and we did quite alot of catching up on our life

HOWEVER

I hate the stupid waitress who gave lousy service!

as usual right

and i most definitely hate that hazelnut drink ... yucks

disgusted by it,

too sweeet!
totally not worth it at all!

headed home together afterwhich

as my high heels were killing me!

now my feet are feeling so sore, lousy! LOL

reaching home!

oops!

end of the day

i've no idea why guys don't like it when their girls get clingy on them.

everyone needs freedom,

but when u truly love someone,

don't you wish to spend more time with time every now and then if possible?

for my case,

the time where i stop being clingy will be the day i lose interest in my bf

the feeling has faded away.

another thing is i hate being alone

if you leave me alone,

then this is it.

the start to the end of everything

2008-10-03T19:31:00.000-07:00

do u know what's my weakest point?

it's my family.

try talking about them and i'll most probably show u another side of me.

all along i've been feeling guilty,

and sorry for my mom too.

all of us were too busy to care enough for her.

or rather, to spend more time with her.

this has been going on for years ...

it's so hard to accept what she'll do when she's out.

i've no idea what went terribly wrong.

we are no longer that close,

just a simple meal with them can make me uber happy!

in case you don't know,

i would very much LOVE to go shopping with my mom so much

however her weird behaviour just forced me to cast away that idea.

yes i need patience,

but try imagining yourself growing up in a environment whereby everything in ur life just seems to be going the wrong way.

other than that,

there're also some changes which makes it hard for me to accept reality.

[trying living with my mom for years and u'll know what makes me an unfillial daughter]

no matter what,

i really love my parents and sister wayyyy too much.

everytime i teared,

they'll always be in my mind.

ijustcan'tlivewithoutthem

thus that explains why i'm so afraid for my mom.

all along she's always the weakest one.

i just need more love from my family

but how do i get it?

2008-10-03T13:18:00.000-07:00

TADANG!

this is the new layout for my blog!

it's simple and i can post my pictures.

thank god i've yet to forget how to play around with the codes ((:

meanwhile,

listen to the song, it's one of the songs i'll listen when i'm in a relaxing mood.

but i lost the cd!

anyway,

it's a really nice song so enjoy yourself!

2008-10-03T08:03:00.000-07:00

you know what?

i got a new gadget to play with!

it's my V9 motorols rose gold edition! ((:

finally here comes a flip phone for me! heh

by the way,

i really ought to thank baby

simply because ...

HE GOT A GOOD DEAL FOR ME!

i only paid like 300 bucks for it,

my collegue saw the same V9 phone which is second hand, selling at 268.

so don't u think i got a good deal? heh

besides,

he gave me a very nice pouch

and most importantly,

i got a 2gb memory card for free!

i must say this is indeed a wonderful deal at a good price! ((:

i'mlovingit!

on a lighter note,

the course is being postponed to 2 weeks later! boo..

to think i'm still looking forward to it! :(

called baby and i joined his mommy and him for shopping.

baby bought himself a pair of levis jeans,

auntie got a bag from mjphosis

while me?

i bought my new phone! heh

baby's sis joined us afterwards ...

shopped here and there.

finally we had dinner at this northern indian restaurant

i don't like the food.

i'm never a fan of those stuff.

i'm feeling bored now!!!

got the weekends off but ive nowhere to go.

friends are meeting me either in the late afternoon/night.

i'm gonna be soooooo bored at hm!

baby won't be accompanying me :(

think he needs sometime for himself too.

ya,

i know i've been bothering him wayyyyy too much.

can't help it though,

who ask you to be boyfriend? LOL

2008-09-30T07:51:00.000-07:00

yours truly is indeed a happy girl today!

though i didn't get to buy the pills,

i managed to perm my hair once again!

the 2nd time but i'm still SATISFIED ((:

in fact i love the look of my new perm, i'mlovingit!

baby picked me up and we VROOOOOM VROOOOOOOOM to plaza sing for ...

PAINTED SKIN

i've absolutely no comments for this movie.

it's kinda nice in a way though,

just hope u people won't fall asleep while watching.

by the way,

BABY SNATCHED MY SWEET POPCORN! BOOOO!

we then dropped by Stargolf

to look for baby's bro and uncle.

i like the way baby look when he's coaching

love it when he starts explaining non stop.

hmm,

i think i love him ... LOL!

left at 1930

took a look at the nokia and motorola flip phone.

frankly speaking,

i still prefer the motorola phone!

it's look much more elegant than that nokia phone.

hmmm,

i need more money!!!!!!!!!!!

feeling very broke currently. save me!

baby,

though i did not express it out,

i hope u'll know just how much i appreciate it to have u out shopping with me ((:

it's been such a long time don't you think so?

you made me happy by giving me what i want.

thank you peter ang((:

ilu.

2008-09-29T04:36:00.000-07:00

For all i know,

baby is ignoring me now!

he's actually happily attached to the telly

so ya,

gotta be on my own for a teeny weeny while first. i'll just make do with the warmth of the blanket instead of his hugs and cuddles!

boo!

stocktake finally comes to and end for us! [most of us]

i hate counting the stocks!

it's lousy piece of shit!

got back to work at 4 after my lunch.

worked a lil here and there and TADANG!

it's time to knock off!

wheeeeeeeeeeeee!

baby was already waiting for me!

came back to his place and out again for dinner with the mommy too!

i just realised ...

i NEED a phone

i NEED to do my nails! [they're freaking dry now]

i NEED to get the pills

i definitely NEED to get that coach wallet if possible ((:

all these means i'll have to sacrifice a lump sum of money!

not much of a lump sum though but u get the drift right?

i shall just be good and get back to work regularly for the sake of some MOOLAH!

2008-09-28T08:37:00.000-07:00

i've not been having any good day recently.

something's so wrong between baby and me.

won't be elaborating.

like what he said,

there's no need to go round announcing

this should between him and me only.

it's gonna be a private affair from now onwards.

whatever obstacle we're facing now

he strongly believes we can overcome it.

it's only the mindset which is hinding me from everything.

don't worry

i'm pretty fine now.

definitely better than just now.

as usual,

food makes me ELATED!

especially if ur bf got u all your favourite food ((:

he even went to the extra mile by taking the longer route to my place

just so we can catch a glimspe of the F1 race.

no matter how nasty the day can be ...

the night definitely make up for it ((:

however it's lingering in my mind ...

2008-09-25T08:37:00.000-07:00

sometimes,

some stuff just trigger my thoughts and got me thinking real hard.

many a times i told myself not to be too dependent on others

yet i can't help it.

i supposed it's my nature?

if one day you're alone and feel scared,

would u turn to your love ones first for help?

what if they are unable to help you out at that point of time?

how would u feel?

i don't understand why.

frankly speaking, it's a major disappointment and sadness definitely overwhelms me.

because love ones will always be the one i turn to first.

i wish and hope to be independent

however i know this is terribly hard.

if i walk alone,

am i able to do it?

i really can't depend on anyone

because none of u is reliable.

it's really proving to be damn fucking hard!

and in short, i just have to count on myself no matter what.

no one will be there for you forever.

to me, forever is bullshit and it's whatever to me.

so cut the crap out.

2008-09-22T10:40:00.000-07:00

omg,

till now i've yet to change my blogskin and add in a tagboard!

can't seems to find the perfect one.

i'm freaking bored now!

i'm soooo hating stocktake!

i'm doing merlion's later on ... 3pm till 1am.

wondering who's gonna share the cab with me?

i hate awkwardness ... it's a bitch!

shopping today with darling kristine & van.

bought myself a bracelet at Aldo, heartshape!

it's something i've been looking for quite sometime

so yup, i'm happy ((:

next was a set of lingerie!

i like it lacey and with a bit of satin!

seems yummy ... heh ((:

i'm missing my baby

but he's sick.

how i wish baby isn't so weak at times.

you're falling sick more often now ...

i don't like,

baby don't like it either.

i wanna take good care of you!

yet i cant for today,

so sorry..

ok,

now i'm sneezing every 3 mins!

i wonder if my room is that dusty

or do i really have such a sensitive nose?

i hate it when this happen!